Hey Lindsay Girl,
Here we go again, year number three of the day before tomorrow. The day before I watched you laugh like no one was watching, the day before you made laugh the same way. The day before we spent some valuable father/daughter time together, which was a rarity, due to your busy social life. The day you made fun of my old man gang signs, even though I thought, they were somewhat awesome. The day you made my heart so happy when you said, “I am not going to date until I am thirty-five.” The day you lied about all the people at the pool and I didn’t even care. The day I could not believe I was so blessed to have you and Jarrett in my life. Tomorrow, the day I heard your laugh for the last time. The day we spent our last moments together as father and daughter. The day that smile would never be seen again, the day your hair flowed in the wind one last time. The day I heard you say, “Love you too dad” for the final time here on this earth. The day my world came crashing down. The day I walked into an emergency room and felt like I was in a movie, because I could not believe this was happening. The day your mother and I stood in front of a surgeon and listened to him tell us the next 48 hours were crucial to your survival. The day I walked into STICU room number nine and saw all your dreams, all your plans, all your tomorrows fading away.
Tomorrow is a pretty tough day for me Lindsay Lou. I need to hear your laugh, I need to see your smile, I need you to finish teaching me how to “Nea Nea.” I still can’t believe you said I had no rhythm. I need you. So tomorrow, if I talk to you a little more than usual, please don’t roll your eyes, like I have seen so many times before. Cut the old man a break. Tomorrow, I will go to work and I will spend a little more time at that stop sign, I will drive a little slower as I pass that spot, and I will try to make it through the day. When I head home I will turn in to our neighborhood, stop at the entrance and sit in the lanai for a while. I will sit there and go over all the scenario’s that would have prevented my tomorrow from happening. A tomorrow that started a week that crushed my soul. Tomorrow I will think about the next seven days that ended with the worst day of my life, the day you left me. I know not willingly, but so peacefully and a hero to so many.
You will always be my princess without a crown, my cheerleader without monograms, and my little girl sucking her thumb dragging that raggedy pink baby around. As much as I hate tomorrow, tomorrows are all I have to look forward to. Tomorrows gives me one more day with Kelli, one more day to be Jarrett’s dad, one more day to be a son, a brother, a stepdad, and a uncle. All the things that help heal the wound, but will never fill the hole in my heart. Tomorrow puts me one day closer to seeing you one again. Tomorrow, I hope you take a look down and wrap your arms around all of us to ease the heartache of our tomorrow.
Love you girl,
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As tears flow, I fell your pain. Prayers for you all. Lindsay will live on in our hearts forever. Sending hugs. ❤
*feel your pain.
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Tomorrow i will drive past “ the spot “ as you called it in honor of Lindsay . I am unable to drive out that gate any longer but tomo I will.
My heart hurts for you and Lindsay’s Mom.
Just wanted you to know that my husband & I will be thinking of you both tomorrow.
I hope Lindsay sends you plenty of messages & signs tomo Brad
Fondly Carolyn & Pete Rocchio
Absolutely beautiful…I don’t think I could as strong. God Bless you all. Prayers Kelli 🙏🏼 & Brad 🙏🏼
Even now, three years later the heartache is so profound.
Brad, yes she hears you and I pray that you can feel the warmth from the heavenly hug that she is embracing you with. Time can seem like such an enemy but for now it gives you time to heal, grieve and grow. Let your spirit rest. You are cherished by so many. Including your friends.
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Beautiful writing shows the great love you have for your daughter.